Ramadan is coming soon. I remembered the events a few years ago, when the evening prayers and followed by tarawih prayers at the Holy Mosque- Makkah Al Mukarramah. I carried a red prayer mat from my home which colour of red will be obvious and not difficult to find it if I returned from renew ablution or took Zamzam for drink during I pray at the Holy mosque.
When we reached the Holy Mosque, it was full of pilgrims from various countries, I have to find place for pray separate from my husband. So I walked in amongs female pilgrims, said bismillah and pray to Allah, Rabbisysyrahli shadri wa yassirli amri ( O Allah clear my heart and make it easy my affairs), along the way by looking for a place to spread out my prayer mat. Alhamdulillah there was a vacant place sufficient for one person. I spread mat and say Salam to the left is my right. They are Turkish women who are big and elderly, so I seat between them. Alhamdulillah, Thanks to Allah.
After I pray sunnah (voluntary pray) and sat remembrance Allah (dzikr) waiting for Isha azan. Lady beside me talking to me and I did not understand the words, so I just smiled. The lady still talk, I replied with the Arabic language that I did not understand what she said, and then she used her hand as a sign language that she asked me to get her a drink Zamzam water.
SubhanAllah, Allah gave me a gift to help the old lady get her a drink of Zamzam. I stood up and looked around, where I can find the barrel of zamzam . As she stepped to get the zamzam, I count the number of rows that I passed and what direction I was heading. After having taking 2 cups of Zamzam water, I stepped back towards where I was before. O Allah I did not find my red prayer mat. I felt I had been right count the row I passed through. Where is my red prayer mat?. You know, during Ramadan a lot of worshippers came for pray jama’ah, so it’s difficult to find place for standing for pray if we came early.
Soon azan isha resounding and everyone sat in their position. In a panic, I stopped in the middle of the ocean worshipers of women who still sat waiting for azan. I closed my eyes and prayed: “Ya Allah, I come here because of you, intending shollat jama’ah with all whorshipers in Baitullah, expect you blessing, pleading for Thy mercy, Thou give me chance to help fellow servant of Yours, by bring this zamzam for them, so please calm my heart down and make me easy to find the best place for me to pray, Aamiin.
Slowly I opened my eyes, SubhanAllah, it was clear my red prayer mat lay just only by passing through 2 rows another. why had not I seen?.
Realizing that I depended on the red prayer mat I quickly said Astaghfirullahal’adziim. Please forgive me, the weak servant of O Allah.
Allah never abandoned His servant, no matter how small good deeds is performed there will be a return to His servants, a good reward from Allah Subhanahu wata’ala.
The incident not only as a gift from Allah but even further as a test of faith for me to realize the existence of Allah. One of the lessons Allah has given, taught me which only depends on Allah Subhanahu wata’ala. instead of depends on his creatures or objects like my red prayer mat, This has now become alarm that kept whispering me, reminds me to always do muhasabah (introspection) and contemplating His existence and being muraqabah (always feel in the eyes of Allah).
Aamiin Allahumma Aamiin. In syaa Allah Ya Rabb.
